Mothers of Souls

a grief space for mothers who've lost children

To lose a child, to any circumstance, is a heartbreak that is beyond comprehension.

If you are here because you have lost a child, I am so very sorry.

I wish beyond everything that none of us needed a space like this, that all of our children were home safely in our arms.

Each day I’m confronted with the reality that, for reasons beyond any comprehension I have, there are times when our children are taken from us.

And yet we continue to live.

To walk upon this earth without our children by our sides is quite literally to walk among the fires of hell…each and every day.

I find myself feeling lost so much of the time in this existence that makes no sense without my children, which leads me to why I’m creating this space here.

I never thought there could be a tragedy greater than the death of my children, but over these last few years I've learned that there is a cruel edge that can be layered onto that excruciating existence:

that of my grief and sorrow going unexpressed and unwitnessed.

In differing moments and in variable ways, I've felt myself locked away from all that makes me human.

I felt incapable of holding the pain within my heart and my mind unable to wrap itself around the reality that my sons were dead.

It felt as if my soul’s very gates were shuttered closed.

I became a zombie, a body that walked and breathed and functioned but empty of anything of substance.

When I was so locked away I felt no pain— but I also felt no love.

Bit by bit, I'm learning to integrate the pain and the love back into my body, to awaken my mind, and to open the gates of my soul once again.

This daily practice looks like finding ways to express my sorrow, through words and art, through movement and storytelling.

By finding safe spaces, and creating them, where the expression of my sorrow is normalized and welcome, where whatever comes up and out is celebrated and witnessed for the bravery that it is.

I believe that we are mother’s forever and always.

To express our sorrow is to honor our soul and the journey it's on. 

To express our sorrow is to share our love of our children with the world ❤️❤️

Here on Mothers of Souls, you can expect to find:

• journal entries and stories depicting grief and the reality of living life after child loss

• art and creativity prompts to encourage expression and self-care

• resources to provide support for grieving mothers

• opportunities for connection (coming soon!)

To lose a child is an unbearable reality no one should have to face.

I am so sorry that you know this pain and I am so glad you have your way here.

We do not need to walk alone through the darkness.

We can be each other's support and witnesses along the journey.

We are Mother's forever and always.

We are now Mothers of Souls.